not just a phase,
my shoes are melted in place
I can't escape,
sick of you trying to relate
This is how I feel, this shit is real,
nothing you can do or say
Life is a maze, the walls seem to change,
but every day stays the same
It's not just a phase, my shoes are melted and plain,
so I can't escape
Sick of you trying till the late, this is how I feel,
this shit is real, nothing you can do or say
Life is a maze, the walls seem to change,
but every day stays the same
Troubled since his youth,
his mother on drugs
While at school she would pawn
his stuff
His brother the smarter of the two,
so he'd hate his guts
Life got harder so he would fill his lungs
With a little bit of the green stuff,
a gateway drug
A downward spiral
and a slippery slope
Way before fentanyl laced the coke
So he lived long enough
to see where the ladder goes
Shook hands with the devil
when heroin entered the fold
His dealer a woman, 52 years old
23 trading sex to tie off the hose
With age in his veins,
he found a love he'd never known
A hole left by a childhood
in a broken home
The room's spinning an
d the vision gets blurred
Smile on his face,
temporarily forgets the hurt
Face turns to shock and
he gets concerned
The breathing slows down as
his knees hit the ground
Vomit stains his shirt,
strained eyes at a bright light
Rewinds his life back to his birth
It's not just a phase,
my shoes are melted in place
I can't escape,
sick of you trying to relate
This is how I feel, this shit is real
Nothing you can do or say, life is a maze
The walls seem to change,
but everyday stays the same
It's not just a phase,
my shoes are melted in place
I can't escape, sick of you trying to relate
This is how I feel, this shit is real
Nothing you can do or say, life is a maze
The walls seem to change,
but everyday stays the same
Commercial break, boom,
at heaven's gates
And
Lonnie sees it split two ways
When the floor opens up and
he falls from grace
A transparent individual at his own wake
The turnout's bigger than
he'd ever think
Pictures of his life that he'd
thrown away
Blasted on the wall,
shown in a way that loved ones saw
Tears roll down his face
Overwhelmed by love
and consumed by shame
Stares at his hands,
calculating his mistakes
He begins to yell and wade,
trying to communicate
But the room stretches out and fades away
It gets hot and he starts to sweat
Fissures open up with smoke, blood red
Chanting in the distance,
shackles appear on his legs
Footsteps get louder till the
devil hits the bend
When he wakes up on the floor
next to his motel bed
Holy shit it was all a dream,
at least it must have been
He wipes the sweat off his forehead and
reaches for that needle once again
It's not just a phase,
my shoes are melted in place
I can't escape,
sick of you trying to relate
This is how I feel, this shit is real,
nothing you can do or say
Life is a maze, the walls seem to change
but every day stays the same
It's not just a phase,
my shoes are melted in place
I can't escape, sick of you trying to relate
This is how I feel, this shit is real,
nothing you can do or say
Life is a maze, the walls seem to change,
but every day stays the same
I got the call in the
morning that he didn't make it
I was up all night drinking,
working on music
Indulging in my vices, which is kind of ironic
He got me into writing and it was
there when I lost him
I've always used it to map out my problems
It works for me, I wish he never stopped it
Said he was my biggest fan
and that he was watching
What I didn't understand
was he was in the cockpit
When I ran songs by
him before I would drop them
I was selfish, never visited him
when he was locked in a cell
Now his ashes sit in my grandma's
kitchen on the third shelf
When I visit,
I miss him and it hurts like hell
Wish it was different and that I had helped
I know I couldn't save him but
sometimes hate myself
In my own world,
I ignored his mental health
Let my phone ring until the sound fell
But cried like a baby
when he died in that motel
So much potential, as cliche as it sounds
This one's for him,
I hope you're at peace
It's not just a phase,
my shoes are melted in place
I can't escape,
sick of you trying to relate
This is how I feel, this shit is real
Nothing you can do or say, life is a maze
The walls seem to change but
every day stays the same
It's not just a phase,
my shoes are melted in place
I can't escape, sick of you trying to relate,
this is how I feel, this shit is real, nothing
you can do or say, life is a maze, the walls seem to change,
but every day stays the same.
you
Impulse 
